Depression
Art provides me with an opportunity to express and explore what it’s like living with treatment-resistant depression.
The Dark Pit
Living with depression and anxiety feels like living alone in a deep, dark, cold hole... and when you think it can't get any worse, clouds begin to form, it starts to rain and the hold begins to fill with water.
"For Sh*t F*ck"
Living with a mood disorder often feels like living in a nightmare; a series of unfortunate events. This is often due to an inability to cope with stress and it accumulates.
Sad
Feels
Depression feels like you’re stuck in this dark, cloudy bubble. Everyone around you is happy, but you don’t know how to let it in.
The Depression Cloud
Fear lingers,
sadness overwhelms,
numbness sits,
drenched in depression,
as my soul is tempted by death
and the hopelessness takes root
at my core.
I'm frozen
stuck
trapped
imprisoned
in this feeling
of doom and gloom,
aloneness and apathy,
of death and desperation.
When time passes I remain still in this moment;
stagnant.
unchanged.
lost.
And so far away from freedom and hope,
it's as if it never existed.
THIS is the depression cloud.